Lately, I've been church-hopping and sometimes I don't bother going to church at all. I do want to be connected with a community, but I have trouble finding one. I'm quick to point out the flaws when I visit a church. I know this isn't very good. I find one church with a good sermon, but can't seem to get fellowship. I find another church with some sort of fellowship, but a sermon that makes me fall asleep. I realize no church is perfect. It's in our human nature to find perfection. We want the perfect church, spouse, job, etc. However, the search is definitely futile.
I think the most satisfaction I get from worshiping God is being involved in a movement. When I was involved with Campus Crusade, I felt I was making a difference and so talks, prayers, fellowship, praise and worship, and evangelism made sense. They became more meaningful. Now that I'm working, I am disconnected and discontent. Although, I've had some great discussions with my co-workers about Jesus and what it means to be a Christian. I keep thinking about the future and how I want to make a difference in the world for God's glory. Church just doesn't seem helpful right now.
I went to a Pentecostal church this morning with my buddy, Brian and his wife, Vanessa. We saw some of the girls Vanessa teachs from the
Dance Barn Studio, a dance ministry, perform on stage. They were great. I knew there would be some sort of dancing going on at a Pentecostal church. When the pastor spoke about how the harvest is here and the time is now, it made me think how every Sunday it seems the time is now. The next Sunday, I would imagine the same message and the time is now. How long has it been? I guess it's to motivate the congregation to take an active role in their faith, but is it really pushing them forward? They raise their hands and want to see their friends saved, but is it really what they want? It just seems like a Sunday thing to me. Then again, I could be wrong and friends are getting saved.
My lifestyle is quite different than what it used to be a few years ago. I'm a bit more liberal in thinking, yet hold conservative values. Christian Hip Hop, Alicia Keys, and Coldplay have influenced my life in how I view the world. I'm a bit more chill and have left my worries up to the Lord. I've hit a plateau in my faith. I only hope that it grows somehow. I must make the first move.
Peace.